i am trying to win a kris allen m&g...

...which is why as a form of ultimate fanboism on my part, I am posting my "pick me, puh-leeze!" ditty, to the tune of "She Works Hard for the Money" (Kris Allen acoustic version of course!). So, Music Management Int'l, for your consideration. :)

Here goes:

Saw him there on the Idol stage
And I wondered who he is
Cos it's strange to me
That I haven't heard him sing a thing

Nine PM on the hour hand
And he's singing MJ's song
And he's sounding real pretty
As he poured out his heart and soul

He worked hard for the title
So hard to win that title
He worked hard for the title
So I better hear him tonight

Twenty-eight eps have come and gone
And I've seen a lot of tears
Of the ones voted out
Yet Kris is still standing there

It's a sacrifice singing day to day
For lukewarm comments, judges seem to pay
But it's worth it all
Just to hear him sing the night away

He worked hard for the title
So hard to win that title
He worked hard for the title
So I better hear him tonight

Already knows
He's seen his bad times
After winning Idol
These are the good times

Never sold out
He never did
Even with "No Boundaries"
He worked hard...

He worked hard for the title
So hard to win that title
He worked hard for the title
So I better hear him tonight

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*fingers crossed* Good thing I was doing versions of The Wonder Girls' "Nobody" these past couple of days (for an upcoming company outreach this week). It sure helped a lot. :)

For the uninformed, Kris will be here in the Philippines this week to perform with Jabbawockeez and Boyce Avenue in Cebu and Manila. Interested? Call Ticketworld for deets. I, for one, cannot wait for this. *kilig*

party like it's 2009

I am so over 2009.

As I write this, less than seven hours from now we'll say goodbye to the Noughties (is this the official term? Whatevs) and welcome the Tens. It's a new decade altogether, and it makes me... cautiously optimistic that the new year will be waaay better.

Don't get me wrong, the beginning of the year was very interesting for me. Then it just sort of... flatlined. I wouldn't even call it a downward spiral -- more like it plateaued for the rest of the year. Come to think of it, this had been a constant subject of discussions, whether with the boss, or with the peers. *sigh* Eric tells me I may not taking advantage of all the opportunities presented to me. Maybe.

And to think I said I should grab life by the balls.

It was a year of learning. Sure, it was mired with disasters (in every sense of the word). But it was also a year of firsts for me. Very dramatic. But Macky will tell you that she is so over the drama. Me too, for once.

In any case, three resolutions, that hopefully I'll follow through:

• Be healthy (that includes lose 10 pounds and build mass -- I want to be buff. LOL!
• Fall in love
• Fly higher

And oh look -- things are predicted to go better already.

my (post-)christmas wish list 2009

Late again for my wish list this year! :( Twitter is the devil -- it's taking up my time, what with my fan-tarding over a certain AI winner *ehem* and posting lyrics of the day, instead of attempting to actually write something.

Excuses excuses. I know. *sigh*

Here's my list last year:

1. Boyfriend? HAHAHAHAHA! *sings* "All I want for Christmas is youuuu..." [I really should be doing something about this... more resolve for next year!]
   
2. Own laptop, preferably a MacBook, just because it is cool, or one of those cute netbooks (I'm heart-ing the Lenovo S10 at the mo').
3. Another external HDD, because the old one is consistently running out of space
4. My own car
   
5. Trip: out of country conferences, off-site work, or (and especially) leisurely vacations. Hopefully somewhere overseas for the first two; Mactan, Boracay, or Bohol for the last.
6. A new pair of kick-ass shoes. Brown ones, preferably loafers as per my image consultant. Hehe.
7. Several books and original DVDs that are too many to mention (and I'm making up -- will make up -- a separate list as I go along)
   
8. A savings account with at least six figures in it (I'm really hoping my investments pick up by then)
9. Subscriptions for Entertainment Weekly, Out, and DNA magazines.
10. Health, wealth, and prosperity for my family and to all of us (naks!).

Four out nine (#10, like I said before, is a constant aspiration). Slight improvement from last year. These are still (mostly) self-fulfilling wishes, though, which is why #8 is still unfulfilled. Heh.

Here's my list this year:

1. Boyfriend? HAHAHAHAHA! *sings* "All I want for Christmas is youuuu..." [In fairness, I did have more resolve this year. Go go go again!]
2. Own laptop, preferably a MacBook Pro, just because it is cool, or one of those cute netbooks. A trusty Windows-based notebook is okay, too... after all, Windows 7 is supposed to be better (than Vista).
   
3. My own car
4. Trip: out of country conferences, off-site work, or (and especially) leisurely vacations. Hopefully somewhere overseas for the first two; Mactan, Boracay, or Bohol for the last.
5. Backstage passes and/or meet and greet opportunities to my favorite acts. Kris Allen is top priority, especially with these rumors floating about that he will be here in February! *squeal*
   
6. More pairs of kick-ass shoes. I still haven't gotten myself a pair of brown loafers.
7. New/Updated wardrobe to go with the shoes.
8. The perfect bag. Heck, a new laptop bag will do.
   
9. A savings account with at least six figures in it (I'm really hoping my investments pick up by then)
10. Health, wealth, and prosperity for my family and to all of us (naks!).

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can't fight this feeling

So this is what falling in love having a huge HUGE crush must feel like.

Remember the last time I came this close into feeling... something? It's happening again. In an almost identical situation. Of course, again I fear I'm treading a very thin line here: should/would/could I?

At least I've already gotten some facts straight (pun intended). Availability: check. Knows that I exist: check. Hotness factor: check. (Okay, so that last one is biased. But if one can sing, play sports, and be impeccably metrosexually dressed all at the same time, you'd wonder if there's anything he cannot do.) I can carry out a conversation with him without feeling stupid or attempting to be somebody else because I'm not funny enough, or serious enough, or... butch enough.

But he knows me -- flaws and all -- as an acquaintance. A colleague. I wonder how that'll translate if I aim for that next level. And he has his cracks beneath the perfect surface, too. That text-speak for one. :P And has some unresolved issues with himself and his past relationship/s. Which explains -- at least I try to explain to myself out of jealousy -- why he's on constant string of dates.

The selfish part in me urges to go jump ahead and profess, ABBA-style, that should he change his mind, I'm the first in line. The more selfish part in me fears of a possible fallout if things go awry: the awkward relationship that becomes unbearable for one or for both. *shrugs*

I've actually already decided to go jump right ahead. If anything, it makes me motivated to better myself if not for him then for someone else in -- hopefully -- the near future (although admittedly this holiday season is making it difficult for me to work out. LOL!). At least the inspiration is there. What paralyzes me now, though, is the timing and the approach. Is there a perfect timing in the first place? What are the chances of him moving on while I fuss over timing?

I don't want this to be another shoulda-woulda-coulda scenario all over again. That I'm sure of.